Some of these days, I really feel on top of things. Everything seems to be going along nicely, I make progress, I do work, all is fine. Other days, I feel a bit discouraged and confused about if what I do is really OK. But I know that's just a phase and it doesn't bother me too much.
Then there are days like today, where things just seem to take their own turn and I can but chase after them. Working on the computer, doing lots of neccessary but not really hands-on things whilst the sun is shining outside and everybody's busying themselves in the garden and around the house makes me feel like such a bum. But if I go outside and do active stuff that then is not so important for my immediate plans I feel bad because I'm not working.
In addition, today seems to be one of the days where the internet is full of a myriad of inspiring pages and great people and opportunities, way too much to process it all or go after them and making me feel like a time waster sitting here and not just going out and making stuff happening.
The only thing to do in such situations is to reboot. There's no way I'll get on top of things by running around all day, so I might as well just take some time and root myself.
The things that keep me grounded are trees, rivers, walking barefoot and telling someone who understands.
Oh, and good, fresh, healthy food seems to help, too.
Luckily, all we have to do to stand in the middle of a field now is go behind the house. The river is just a few more steps away and a lovely bench under a tree can be found at almost every corner.
So after half an hour of outdoors-lunchbreak, I felt much better about myself and now I am still busy doing a lot of things, but with much more purpose and security.
Gratefulness, as always, thanks to Maxabella:
There's so many more greatful people out there: